Great memories..following Fantastic adventures.

I had a great adventure with my boyfriend today. :)
My morning started out crappy :( ..but my afternoon was very good.
I'm not going to share things on here. we did get into some truoble..:(
But it was fuun. and i hope to do it again , xDD
In a non-sexual way..lmao,
I feel closeer to him, i feel like i can connect with him more. He was there for me all day today..i love you! :D
I did get into a little fight with my bestie :O
But things are fixed :]

So here's to a great friendship..with lots of great memories..and fantastic adventures.
..And Here's to a great relationship..with lots of great memories, and fantastic adventures..also.

I LOVE YOU BOTH! :)

confusing feelings...=/

Im not going to continue, anymore..im done with it.
Today you really pissed me off, after...so i decided..im done...im not doing it anymore.
There really, is no point...

I dont know, there are some things that, well just bug me about you..
Some of the things you do, and some of the things you choose to say..=/
I mean, everybody says, and does things that are just wrong at the time.
but still, i think im done with it...

wow that sounds confusing..but the person it involves would get it...
Im really confused at the moment right now about so many things...=/

thought things were good, they are too, very good.i guess
but there are still some things, i just dont know about...

I have recently decided to follow another blog site...thanks to a friend who suggested it to me..=]
I will still blog on blogger, from time to time...but my more personal posts...some of them i'd rather not have everyone see..will be on my new blog site. so its like a goodbye to blogger, but ill be back : D...

I dont think your thinking about me in this situation.

Your thinking about what you want, and its kinda selfish.

your not at all, thinking about my feelings..=/

not thinking about what i want, in this situation..only you.

trying to make it seem like here is better..

i love you, and i dont want to leave you, but i think its just

something i need? can u understand that? ...

New Beginnings..

I thought coming back , you know from a long break, would be good.. i was so wrong. I am so happy with the way things are going and stuff, surprisingly things are just great for me. Hope it lasts...just was kinda thrown off about that whole talk you had with us, and that's a lot of drama..= /..so that's the only downside...but i hope things work out for you in the future...its a shame we cant be friends..but we cant do anything about that now. =/

So in the new year, I was totally thinking ..well great, its just gonna be another stupid year. but actually , surprisingly things have just been going great, maybe I'm jinxing it or whatever by saying its great. I just hope all this happiness lasts. Things have surprisingly been going good at home , for the most part..some things are still iffy..but hey, not all things can be perfect..and I'm just glad with what I can get, I'm not complaining or being picky. =] . I'm happy that I'm happy. and I'm happy that I have a great boyfriend who loves me, and who I love with all my heart. I'm happy for all the great friends i have, I'm thankful..and glad..and happy for the one special best friend i have, your awesome..and I'm glad were friends, and i hope it stays that way. so thank you to all the people in my life, who make my days special, who love me for me, who don't judge me, who make me so happy, i love you all..and I'm just all giddy with cheerfulness and joy..so i thought i should write this wa'll i still feel this way..<3

HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE...

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  I'm glad, that I'm starting off my new year happy,for once. Somethings aren't the greatest at the moment..but hey, those things are just a small part in my life right now. I'm especially happy that I have someone to share all my happiness with, and I'm thankful and glad that were together and I hope the best for us... he's pretty much the reason why I'm this happy,why I love myself, why things are going great in my life..because of you. Ive never had someone like you in my life, and I love you. I'm glad that I'm starting off my new year..happy and im glad its with you..<3

JUST HAVE TO SAY, I HOPE ALL OF YOU HAVE AN AWESOME BEGINNING TO YOUR NEW YEARS..I WISH GREAT HAPPINESS TO ALL OF YOUR NEW BEGINNINGS IN 2010..:DDD.

no name..

its complicated, because i feel so much for you, and Ive never felt like this before..its a new feeling, something Ive never experienced and i am kinda scared..but I'm glad to be sharing all this with you..I'm glad I'm with you. and i wouldn't ask for anything else.i don't need gifts, material things..because id be fine , if i never got one thing from you..because as long as I'm with you, I'm good, I'm great, that's all i need..is you, i love you.and i care for you oh, so much..but one thing is that I'm new to all this..this whole serious relationship thing..Ive never really had such a serious relationships and I'm glad i do, and I'm glad its with you. I'm glad your the person i love..I'm glad i met you. just give me some time to get the hang of this ,there's certain things i just don't say, because i don't know if there right or wrong..and i don't wanna say something wrong and stupid..and ruin this.i hate that at times when there's something i should say i don't...or i just don't know what to say, and if its important and i don't know what to say..i feel bad. because there was something i should of said..but just didn't know what...or if i want to say something, but think it sounds stupid.. I don't say it. there was a lot more to this..but i lost some of it in the first draft i wrote..so this is all i can come up with at the moment. i have More to say..but just cant find the right words.there kinda mixed, and jumbled up, but when i have them, i will write them...

lost control..

it makes me sad to think that, i wont ever be excepted by you. to think, i try my hardest to impress you, to do the best at school, i try so hard , just so youll love me, and forgive me for all the wrong things ive done. and im not like them, you think i am..im not, im my own person, im waaaay different from them all. you cant sit there and blame me for things i havnt even done yet. for things, that they did, but i havent..but you think because what im her daughter, or im related to them, and i grew up with them..that im gonna be like them, that im gonna do the exact same things they did. its wrong, and i love you so much, but im getting fed up withthis, things are good for right now, but how long will they last. i dont know how much of this i can take, seriosly, i really donti think i might go insane. i only have 4 more years of this, but i dont know if i can make it..im just not suure. i think i need to get away from you, to truly be happy..its not ment to be for me to live with you..its really not...its better, for visits and stuff..but actually living with you, its just not duable..im sorry..but if i dont leave soon, i think i might go mad..i dont thinkthigns will ever be good between us, and i dont think they will ever be good..ive tried to much, and lost alot..and im tired of it.im fed up..and right now i dont know what to do, or how to go about this. so for now i guess im stuck for right now.. >:[

God am I crazy about you, I love you so fucking much...I would do anything for you, I seriously would...I hope things don’t get lost between us, because if they did...I think I’d be lost forever...I really would. I can’t stand to not talk to you at least once a day...Just to hear your voice...I am completely and utterly in love with you baby...I mean it. I’ve never felt the way I do about anyone...what I feel for you...I know its love. You make me happy...I love it. My life used to be so unhappy, worthless and with you in it...its so much better. You’ve turned my life around...If I never met you, I don’t know where I’d even be right now. I’ve never met anyone like you...Someone that I have so much in common with , that’s been through so much I’ve been through...That understands me, that can relate with me, that loves me for me, someone i can share everything with, someone to trust. i can go on forever.I never thought I’d ever find someone like you, but I did...And gosh, you don’t even know how happy you’ve made me. I care for you so much baby. I can’t even stand to be mad at you for more than 10 minutes...I think that if I had never met you, I’d literally be lost. I used to hate myself, hate my life, I used to hate so much, but you’ve changed that all...I don’t hate myself...I love myself...Because of you. My view of the world is so different because of you...Gosh; you’ve done so much to me, in my life, you’ve made me so damb happy, and I love you for it...I’m glad I have you..I’m glad you have me, I’m glad we have each other. I’m glad were together. Baby I LOVE YOU TILL NO END. And that won’t ever change. You’re everything to me, and I hope you know how much I actually do care for you and how much I actually do love you. You say all you see is good things for us, well baby...I see the same...I truly believe that from here on out things can just get better. And I’m good with that, anywhere with you, I’m happy with it. It’s funny how a year ago, you wouldn’t even be my friend...and now were way more than friends...The world works in mysterious ways...But I’m so great with the way things worked out. Gosh I’m just so damb happy, and I hope it stays this way, I hope we stay this way. You’re my everything, and I love you...<3

your like a damb drug to me..

I am completly in love with you

I love talking with you, being with you

I love that were so similar, that we have so many things in common

I love that we can share anything and everything with each other.

I love the butterfly, tingly feeling that i get when im around you

It makes me insane, sometimes but..

..I love you..<3

I never used to get love, i used to think that once you had it , you have it forever..

but things just dont last forever..

but i dont care..with you..i want forever, i need it..i just love you so much..ive never loved anybody before..and maybe im wrong, by saying that i love you..hey im just a kid..i might not even fully understand it..but i still dont care..all i know is that what i feel for you isnt just some stupid crush..its so much more baby..and to me i classify that as love.

happy..

Im actually happy , things are going great,

and im very thankfull for that..hope it stays this waay :) .....

lost . .

I dont know whats been going on latly.

I just feel out of it. like everything thats going on around me, isnt really happening.

I feel lost, and im a little scared because of it. Im not trying to make this sound depressing or anything. But if it does i appologize.

Its just alot of things have been happening. And i dont feel like im witnessing it i feel like im watching it. And its wierd. everything just going so fast , and its all just passing me.

i kinda feel like im falling apart.

report cards ;)

Okay i got my report cards today, and let me tell you they are not the best . My art, band and choir marks are excellent, so a pat on the back for me :D. But the rest are down the drain. I'm very disappointed in myself for this, i thought i was doing good. But a part of me new that it was not going that great . But hey this is only the first term, i can do much better . I believe in myself , And right now school is the thing i really need to be concentrating on. so my new goal for school, is that i have to at least get somewhere in the eighty's or nineties for next term, and that's gonna be hard. But I'm gonna do it =] .

*pictures kinda random. just something i liked. at first i didnt know that there was a head there. It messes with your eyes a little. ;)

Friend <3

I have a friend, who i think is the best.

there smart, funny, and give great advice, list can go on forever,

but it pains me to see them, be so down on themselves. hating life. being upset all the time.

i love this person, like a sister or a brother.

and i wish i could just let them cry on my shoulder, and tell them everything is gonna be alright.

that would be a lie though

are we ever alright?

the answer is no, but we can be. we can make them better for ourselves, we just have to try!
and if this friend, is reading this. i would like to tell you

that everything will get better. trust me. things may suck right now.

but if u keep hurting yourself, the way i know you are

that's just going to make it worse.

don't worry, your Strong, i know you, you'll make it, you'll get through it. keep your head up.

i Love you.

<3

english project:: 20 things i wanna do before i die...

1) Well first off, i want to actually live my life to the FULLEST, i don't wanna miss a single thing. i want to get as much as i can out of life before i die.

2) To get out of WINNIPEG, i cant stay in this shit whole forever! ;D

3) I want to GRADUATE, become something in this world. not some bum working at McDonald's...

4) To take more RISKS, live on the EDGE sometimes. I don't want to just shy in the corner being afraid.

5) I have to ride a roller coaster, i never have. they TERRIFY me. ha ha . =]

6) To get over my fear of HEIGHTS.

7) To be able to stand up to my MUM for once in my life.

8) To dance in the rain. :)

9) TRAVEL around the world. EVERYWHERE. and take LOTS of pictures.

10) win a PHOTOGRAPHY contest/ or an ART contest . to things i love to do. they make me really HAPPY. :D

11) break into SONG in the mall with a bunch of friends.. .

12) win the LOTTERY!

13) go to a RAVE. but i wont be taking any drugs!

14) SKYDIVING. that is gonna scare the shit outta me. but I'm gonna do it. :D

15) To WALK the great wall of china. ALL of it. i better get in shape ;D

16) to become a vegetarian AGAIN. and STAY a vegetarian.

17) become FULLY independent.

18) KISS in the RAIN. it sounds cheesy lol . but NICE. <3

19) See a SHOOTING STAR.

20) I WANT TO BE TRULY HAPPY before i die. :)!!

** a lot of these things may sound weird, or childish. but there things i would like to do. don't get me wrong though. I'm most likely sure some of them will change when i get older.

Orange Crush. . .

ORANGE CRUSH is amazing. its a bubbly, orange, explosion in your mouth . its the best thing ever. lmao . i dont know why im writing about orange crush, maybe because i was just drinking it. but ITS AMAZING.! ;)

Excepted .

I'm just really happy right now. i never really felt like i really belonged in this world, i felt like there was no purpose for me to be here. i don't know, somethings changed, my outlook on the world, on life, its different, its better. i feel excepted now. i feel like even though things aren't the greatest , they will get better and if they don't get better , ill make them better. there's no use for me to dwell in the past, that's not gonna help me, i need to start living in the now, thinking of my future. i understand all that has happened in my life, it has made me become a stronger person, and I'm very glad for that. i used to hate my life, because i thought it was shitty. i thought that even as hard as i tried to make it better, it wouldn't get better and that there was just no use living anymore. well from now on I'm gonna change that, no one else can make things better for me, but me. i feel like I'm a new person. and I'm ecstatic about it. I'm gonna change a lot in my life, and there all gonna be good things. I'm not gonna mope around, feeling sorry for myself. I'm gonna go out there and make a change. im gonna make something out of myself. i want to be proud, and i want my family to be proud. im very happy with myself now. and its just gonna get better. i would like to thank, all the wonderfull people in my life, my friends, family, even people i barely know who make me smile on a day to day basis. im very glad i have you in my life. thanks. im very thankfull for my life now, im greatfull.

greaat night! ;]

Best Afternoon Ever. Veery Fun . Awsome Time, Good Sushi, And Bad Coffee. Lmao .
All In All My Friends Are Awsome. :D

blogger.

gosh i dont know how to do anything on here. its very confusing. i must be stupid or something. lol . but seriously how does this thing work. <_< . im only writing this thing. to see what happens. so this post or whatever.is really nothing. .

life..

life is not all fun and games
life is so much more, and until we all relize that
well our lives are in a way doomed
life is the most precious-ist thing we have
alot of people take life for granted, i used to. but i apreciate it more.

dont just sit there and let life pass you by
you have to get out and enjoy the good things, becasue before you know it
its done. people have told me to not make mistakes and try as hard as i can to not make them
but im not perfect, nobody is
we all make mistakes, its those mistakes that make us who we are
just make sure, that u dont get burried in those choices you make.
becasue if you do, well then your screwed.

im only 14 and iv already seen alot of lives ruined because of the choices that they have made.
and i hope that i dont make those same mistakes,which sucks for me is that iv already made some pretty bad mistakes in my life. but i can fix them, and i em trying to . i just hope that everything is gonna be alright, and that i'll make it in life. i dont want to die, i want to live my life to the fullest, which may sound very cheesy, but its so true.
i love adventures, i just wish my life was an adventure. my life right now is pretty boring. once im outta here. ill have full responsibility of my life. and i promise myself i will live it the way i want. sure there will be obstacles. but i wont let myself get caught in them.

dont let people tell you what to do, dont get pushed around by these stupid people.
who cares about these idiots, in the long run they'll be the ones working at mcdonalds. lmao.
make something of yourself, so you can be proud, so your family can be proud.
take risks in life, dont just shy away in a corner becasue u dont want drama in your life.
if you dont take those risks, and adventures, where are u gonna be in your life.?
if your not happy doing something, dont do it.
dont do things just becasue other people do them.
STAY TRUE TO YOURSELF!
BE YOURSELF!
LOVE YOURSELF!